To take full responsibility...

I have been considering if I should join the race, or not... Not just for the SUP board trouble, but a fragile promise for the course check has been broken...

The staff from the main office of Mont Bell just says, "There must been quite many joining the race without the course check in advance." This may make me feel a little more comfortable but just temporarily.

It is the time to consider by myself, choose by myself, & act by myself.

My uncle left magazine article talking about his thought of his home, Etajima Island. I have read it over and over wondering what to do for the race.

He always had a cautious personality, so I'm sure he says, "Bennie, you need a course check in advance, then you can make a decision."

Whatever the staff says, all I need is to take full responsibility for the race. I've been wavering between joining & giving up. The picture of both Hiroshima city & Prefecture taken by Japanese observation satellite in his office at that moment. Mountains, rivers, sea, island... all are just incredibly beautiful, he mentioned and I saw them as visiting him there.

I wish I could enjoy the nature...if only, if only I would be able to be confident enough. I'm positive, but many vital water accidents has closed beaches there in Etajima Island, so I would feel guilty if I don't be careful enough, that's why I deeply considering.

To be continued...